Song for fellow Mommies

I've been a little emotional tonight and went to the cemetery to put something new at Wiley's grave. Wiley's grave is at a nice cemetery that has a baby section.  As you can imagine they are all decorated so beautifully.  At night the baby section just glows with all the lights.

I noticed they had weedeated and for some reason when they do, they don't have the heart to put everything back how it was. Everything was knocked down and broken and messy. I know they say you can't have much out there during mowing season, but come on. That's all we can do. So I walked around to each baby and fixed their things and straighten up their flowers, lights and stuff. I know my mom does this too when she goes.  I could just hear Wiley in Heaven talking to all his cemetery friends, "Oh, that's just my Mom."  It got me trying to imagine the time Wiley is having in Heaven with all the other babies and all of our loved ones who have already passed away.  I imagine him with Jesus and playing with babies, maybe even my fellow baby loss mommies' babies.  I think his grandpa (my husband's dad) and all of our grandparents holding him. I know he is having a big time.  I'm jealous of the angels.

It made me think of this song.  If You Could See Me Now by Jeff Bates.  I felt the need to post it tonight for my baby loss mommy friends.  It makes me cry and smile.  Make sure and turn the music off at the bottom and take a listen. 

Love you and miss you, big guy.